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Wednesday, 12 October 2011

What's been happening!

Well .... still no period!! Patiently waiting but no appearance since July! Driving me mad now worrying about it. Hard to relax and not think about it!
Also, the past week I have been ill. My stomach has been agony and I went to hospital last night as the pain had got a lot worse. I was giving pills for the sick feeling that is always there and been told to get blood tests done. Inflamed liver, or just acid-y stomach was mentioned. Scary stuff.


I worry that me being ill will mean my IVF is delayed. Our IVF is delayed. I hope that's not the case.


I have been feeling really down about this, been crying a lot more, and unable to sleep. It seems when it comes to bedtime, my mind starts to think about absolutely everything and it makes me worry. My mind races with everything and sleep just doesn't happen until about 3am, and then the next day I am shattered and still sore with this belly ache.



Spoke to Campbell, last night, about IVF and what he thinks our chances of it being successful are. He said he doesn't think it will work first time. It made me feel slightly upset. Not at him saying this, but just the fact its what I think too.
I would love nothing more than to go into this clinic in November and then a few weeks later be told that we will be parents in nine months time, but the chances are slim.
I have to stay positive though, its difficult though, but I am thinking as positively as I can. 



Really looking forward to November and getting away in the motorhome. I am looking forward to spending time with Campbell, away from his work and away from the house. I am looking forward to walking my beautiful dogs along the beach, even if it will be freezing. Most of all, I am looking forward to feeling relaxed and content with my sweetheart again.



I feel like I am rambling on just now .... I just kinda feel a bit lonely just now. The girls have been great though, on the the IVF page on facebook, Jaime and Michaelene especially <3

Oh and lets hope the period appears this month, about two weeks time when it should be due. Fingers crossed xx

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